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I lost it. 

Absolutely lost it. 

I could not contain the tears. 

The shaking. 

The fears. 

Feeling as if my whole world was collapsing at my feet. 

Defeated. 

But that cannot be. 

I cannot allow this lack of belief. 

I know with a certainty that my God is in control. 

I must stop looking at the world and just trust. 

Just trust. 

God sees my desperation. 

We are not living on the streets. 

We are not without. 

We may not have what we want, but we always have what we need. 

I may feel defeated. 

But that’s a lie coming straight from hell. 

And my God is bigger than anything. 

Even this horrendous heat. 

So I lay everything at my sweet Jesus’ feet. 

After all, He is in control 

Not me. 

No one. 

Only Jesus. 

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